My blood boil and my heart aches
I feel alone yet surrounded by many
A part of my fractured heart has given up on help coming.
I’ve become acquainted with showing friends and family a smile.
Yet my blood is boiling and keeps on boiling. I don’t know why maybe this is who I am. That the lie I tell myself.
I search this life for answers to cool down the hot magma that rises in me.
I’m afraid that one day, that lava will spill to those who live in the valley below. They praise me for the mountain that I am, for the soil and nutrients that I bring to their life’s and are blind to the dangers that I bring.
I am angry and don’t know why at times.
Maybe it’s the family dysfunction that causes the magma to swell up or the disappointment that tore my heart in times past.
Yes, the ocean is my hope.
You bring the wind to cool me down when I’m about to erupt. Your wind comforts my soul. Your water seeps into my entire being and restores me to a dormant state.
I yearn for the days when your high tide comes to my mountain shores. You bring the promise of hope and salvation, the village could not save me for they do not see nor know what lurks under the mountain.
The ocean is coming and the day has been set. For you promised to come to save me from all that I feel. Ocean you are vaster and greater than a single mountain you cover the earth and bring balance to what exists.
Lord my ocean I wait for you to save me.
From the pain l, the loneliness, and especially from my self. Teach me oh ocean to love myself. Like the peace exists in you the depth and with of love that you possess. Consume me for I desire to be one with you.
Lord to see more of you and know you
Is my heart greatest dream.
You are the one think I thirst for.
The bread that I grieve above all bread.
I thirst for being one with you.
To know you as I know my being.
May it be known that I no longer three but four parts in you.
I have a body, a soul and a spirit
& now I have your Holy Spirit whom is God.
Abide in me and I will abide you.
Ever draw near to me and I will to you.
You neither forsake nor leave me.
You are ever present God.
Jesus is the perfect model
1 John 1:5
This is the message which we have heard from Him and declares to you, That God is light and in Him is no darkness at all
Similarly in John 1:6-8
There was man sent from God, whose name was John. This man came for a witness to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. He was not that Light , but was sent to bear witness of that Light.
- In God, there is no wickedness nor sin
- He came to be a light to all men
- He gave as a choice, so we can decide if we want it John 1:12 says
- He gave a promise to be a part of Him (sons & daughters).
The mark that shows we are his children (believers)
- Jesus says this is how you will know
- 1 John 2:3 keep His commandment (matt22:37-38)
- If we say we know him but don’t keep them we lie
- Walk just as Jesus Walk (1 cor 11:1)
- The above is nothing new it’s always been there
- My fear is that there are some who deceive themselves. Who claim to be in Christ but Walk outside of Him.
- When Walking with God is something intimate, something you know within you like you know your own Name
Out stumbling stone
Gird up the loins of your mind, be sober and rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; as obedient children not conforming yourselves to the former lusts, as in your ignorance
- God warns us of the dangers of not protecting your heart and mind. So that you will be able to resist the devils of this world and cause us to go astray
- God in this one verse God clearly says you have to be all in! There is no middle ground. Our hope are all sold out for Jesus.
- Hard hearts
Rom 1:21 Because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful but became futile thoughts and their foolish hearts were darkened… 24
Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity o that by his death he might break the power of him who holds the power of him who holds the power of death- that is, the devil- and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death. For surely it’s not angels he helps, but Abraham’s descendants for this he had to be made like them, fully human in every way in order that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in service to God and that might make atonement for sins of the people. Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those are being tempted.
- Jesus had to be like us man in every way so we could be set free
- He paid the highest price for us
- He has suffered and been tempted and understand us and so he is best qualified to make a partition for us
- When you stumble run to the cross
- When you’re tempted run to the cross
- When it seems life is against you, continue to run to him
Being human means that we are floured and will not always do what is right, but it is through Jesus we are made Perfect by His blood.
Knock knock knock!
Sin knocks at my door
Asking to enter
With each knock I’m tempted to open the door
Don’t know how much longer
I can hang on.
So tempted promising pleasure
To satisfy my need to be loved.
To fill the whole church could not fill.
To fulfill my every need.
The sense of just being in peace.
Trust me, it can deliver.
Lust is my craving
My body craves it like a drug
That promises to give a high,
That will make everything okay.
My being thrown in to the storm
My spirit fights me.
Trying to safe my life.
The underdog that victory
Looks far from reality
In the end I am only human.
Who am I?
Fighting a fight that can’t be won.
Sin is my weakness
Sin is trying to sell me American dream.
I hear a quiet voice saying
Sin can be conquered.
It may look impossible
But it’s possible.
One men won it war for all men
So I can stand in victory
Sin nailed to the cross too never resurrect.
Jesus proved it and lived it.
Satan the is the liar promising
A short moment of fame
But destroy your happily forever ever.
Jesus is the answer
He is the church
Enter into His body
Eat and Remember who He is
“I am the Church
Ready to save you at a moment’s notice.”
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this is a short clip of where i came from and i hope many of you can relate with this poem.
I am all but whole,
But not alone.
Single but not lonely.
Forever falling in loving, with me.
In this season
Between birth & death.
A time frowned upon my
The young & the old.
That only come once in a life time.
Like sand of time in an hour glass.
Once gone never to return
I am single but never alone.
I am single but never lonely.
I find joy in the time I spend with self
Time to know who I am
Time to discover my purpose
Time to fulfill my destiny on earth.
Life is a gift
Most precious kind.
We only given one life to live
To be who I was created to be.
I am single but never alone
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I was blind
I say again I was blind
But now I see.
I lived in a world were…
We would see the front cover
But never the whole story
Only getting half of the truth
When I met you everything changed
I listened to your story
As you spoke, I felt your pain
And my heart for a moment
Broke with yours.
How could they? How can someone
Do that? Why would they? A
Million questions raised in my mind.
My heart boiled with hatred
Against them, my heart burning
For justice. I try to make sense of it
But it has no sense, it just insanity.
All I could give this perfect stranger
Was words of comfort, love
Love that was not mine
Hope from all high
I gave her the Love of Christ
I gave her greater hope
In a better tomorrow
I gave what I had,
I gave her Christ.
I was blind
But now I see.
[When I think of what happened to this person I think of the countless women who are abused or raped, its time for Christians, the world and individuals to stand up, or what’s right.]
Matthew 11: 28-30
28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
Whomever has been through the most in life, people around you may never understand the pain you’re going through, but God is there, He is there to take the weight of your shoulder and help you overcome. The world we live in is not a perfect world we live in because of sin. There is a saying that says “hurting people, hurt people”.
hello everyone, I have good news to share with you all. I wrote and published my first E-book. writing a book has always been something I wanted to do like when i’m older, I had no idea what to write about at such a young age, and it hit me Kindness your good in poetry, why dont you write a poetry book. So i began to write, taking it one day at a time. This poetry book is a book that carries a real message that will encourage and uplift anyone who reads it, and my hope for when I wrote this book was that ill be happy if one person would read it and there lives changed in some way by it. It’s a book inspired by God, and also deals on social issues that we face, one of them being depression.
I made a sound track with my brother just to give you a glimpse of the content of what to expect. Its my own voice and to be honest I have insecurities speaking in public or being heard on mic, I just feel that my voice is weird, but i’m learning to love it. please do enjoy.
if your in SA and you would like your own soft copy for a price of R50 email me, find my email at contact page of blog and those who want the book can check it online on amazon.