My blood boil and my heart aches
I feel alone yet surrounded by many
A part of my fractured heart has given up on help coming.
I’ve become acquainted with showing friends and family a smile.
Yet my blood is boiling and keeps on boiling. I don’t know why maybe this is who I am. That the lie I tell myself.
I search this life for answers to cool down the hot magma that rises in me.
I’m afraid that one day, that lava will spill to those who live in the valley below. They praise me for the mountain that I am, for the soil and nutrients that I bring to their life’s and are blind to the dangers that I bring.
I am angry and don’t know why at times.
Maybe it’s the family dysfunction that causes the magma to swell up or the disappointment that tore my heart in times past.
Yes, the ocean is my hope.
You bring the wind to cool me down when I’m about to erupt. Your wind comforts my soul. Your water seeps into my entire being and restores me to a dormant state.
I yearn for the days when your high tide comes to my mountain shores. You bring the promise of hope and salvation, the village could not save me for they do not see nor know what lurks under the mountain.
The ocean is coming and the day has been set. For you promised to come to save me from all that I feel. Ocean you are vaster and greater than a single mountain you cover the earth and bring balance to what exists.
Lord my ocean I wait for you to save me.
From the pain l, the loneliness, and especially from my self. Teach me oh ocean to love myself. Like the peace exists in you the depth and with of love that you possess. Consume me for I desire to be one with you.
When I go to sleep, I wake in different places.
I find myself standing in a grave yard alone.
Its cold empty and dark
No sign of hope.
I begin to sink in the grave.
Despair takes hold of me,
My body numb and frozen
I no longer have strength to fight death.
Now even in my wake death follows me
You now begin to suck the joy out of my life
You are no longer a dream but a reality.
Friends don’t know, how my soul pains
Hope is far from my sight but I still see
A sigh glimmer at a distant.
Now in my wake I see death everywhere
The storms are closing me in.
The sea is pulling me under.
The hangman ties a noose on my neck.
I prepare to take my final breathe
The light that was only a glimmer has enveloped me.
My bones are filled with new strength.
Wings grow from my back, and lift me up.
The noose on my neck breaks
The deep water lose their hold over me
As my wings lift me to new heights.
When I now go back to sleep.
The grave is gone.
The cold has left.
And Death is nowhere in sight.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak
Even the youth go tired and weary and the young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength
[There are times where we don’t even know what we are going through, Or why we are going through what we are going through, but our Hope in God is what helps us get though it]
Everyday I see someone like me.
And everyday I wake passed you.
Your always alone.
When I see you, I stir at you.
My eyes meet your soul.
I can see your heart.
I can feel your loneliness,
It causes my skin to quiver.
Today I walked passed you.
And this time, I saw me in you.
I paused for a minute,
And walked towards you.
Looking for any excuse in the world,
To take away some of the loneliness.
Hi… I said with a smile.
And my smile made you smile.
Joy entered your bones.
And loneliness fled the scene.
And a beautiful conversation started.
I realized that we fall in love and also love the people around us but the is greater depth in that love that it’s hard for us to explain. The Bible refers to God as Love, and he loves us so much. If we can experience his love for us and the magnitude of that love when we are in His presence. Imagine how much more we would love those close to us or the people we don’t even know. We need to go to Love Himself so we can love others as he intended us to.
The scripture in John 3:16 still rings wonder to my ears. For God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten son.
Fire on my feet
Fire on my toes
Fire all around me.
Consumed with what’s people say is best.
But what’s always best for other can’t always be best for me.
I’m developing a heart condition, something is weighing on my heart and it won’t leave till I get it off my chest. And confront it.
A heart soaked in Tears
My heart is soaked in tears.
Tears that continue to flow.
My mind thrown into chaos.
Clouded my others opinion.
My true heart,
Shine a path for me.
Will I take it?
God give me strength too. And the courage and wisdom to follow my heart.
I have walls up, down
To my left and right
All around me.
I have learned to become an architect.
In my past, I’ve been wracked.
People had come to my little village.
The came and left a mess.
Before I had no walls.
Now I have built one.
Its range goes as far as you sight can see
Its walls are as tall as the sky.
Before people they would come and go.
Now no one can enter my village.
My land has been empty of visitors
I have put up walls
Because you broke my heart.
Because not just once but twice.
Not only you but others too.
People entered my little village
And destroyed it.
My heart was the village.
The walls built to protect my village.
The bricks I used to build, were made up of…
The great wall now surround me.
The wall made my love grow cold.
The village lights no longer shine.
My heart has become darkened.
A brilliant architect I was.
I build a wall around my heart
To protect my heart from hurt and pain.
The wall that I build became my destroyer.
No longer can I feel, love, trust, or live.
People are not all bad.
I will build a new wall.
Built from all that good,
LOVE, JOY HAPPINESS, TRUST & UNDERSTANDING
My wall will be strong and immovable.
It will guard my heart and soul.
From the invaders.
From my enemies.
From those who mean my village harm.
I’ve been hurt many times in my life, and what hurts us the most is the people closed to us. We have learned to put up walls around ourselves to make it hurt less and over time, we have become dull to the pain. Heartbreak is the worst when the ones we love leave or reject us. We should not close ourselves to people. People will never be perfect, they will always make mistakes like we do. Guard your heart but in the process don’t cut of people from our lives. Let’s forgive one another. I want to share this scriptures that will help us both get back on the right path.
Guarding your heart
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
Let him in your heart (Jesus words to us).
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
He will guide us.
But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own, he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.
Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
When I read story of man of faith and all the obstacles they went through but never doubted God. It’s so inspiring and amazing . People like Joshua who went into war and God gave him what he promised. Joseph who was sold into slavery but he never wavered in his faith. Not once does it say God why have you done this to me, he turns and worship God through his situation. Through his faith in God, God provided for him in his worst and he prospered. David who defeated a loin and a bear having complete trust in God.
But in this day and age, we doubt and our faith is not strong the situation we face and the things we have seen affect us and may make us doubt. We may have the Holy Spirit who guides us all into truth but we would than say it was not him or such excuses. In times like this we need to press deeper and look at what the Word of God says and look at the examples that remind us of Gods faithfulness and promises.
Stories that were written, where written for especially me and you. To give us hope. To lift up our faith. To move from the impossible to the possible.
A while back I read to story of Joshua and that did something to me on the inside it showed me that despite my circumstances I don’t have to lose hope. Word give hope and reading a simple story can be life changing. Read a something that’s good for you and brings value to your life.
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”
John 1:1 NKJV
Hello their Sun. I've been meaning to ask you, how old are you? For since I could remember you have always been around. And you still look young as ever, while I grow older Your shine, is as brighter as ever. Through the years. You have brought hope to the hopeless. You have brought light to the darkness Your rays causes darkness to hid and tremble. You have touch those who are far, And you Have guided them towards safety. Your eternal touch is felt by all. In this age and to the next. In centuries past and centuries to come. The one Truth that remains my dear friend. Nothing is new under the Sun. Kindness S In Ecclesiastes 1:9 states that "What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun.' That being said that in what ever we are going through in our lives other people have experienced it since the beginning of time it may not be the exact scenario, be it loss, betrayal, heartbreak or anything. There is a Living God who can help you overcome you battles and challenges that you are facing. Don't loss hope stay strong and keep going.
What is the thing everyone in his or her life has to go through?
There is no escaping it. Its aid to test your capacity as a person.
It strengthens your mind, body and soul, so I have been told.
This little thing is called Exams. Imagine you’re in a hall there before
Your eyes is a chair, a pen & paper on the table waiting for you,
As you sit down there is no turning back.
Reality then kicks in, that one piece of paper
Set before your eyes can make or break you.
At the first glance of the paper you realise,
I can’t do this on my own, so you resort to what many
Often do when our backs are against the wall and that is
Turn to God.
In that moment when it is just you, the paper and God
We tend to make a request “if only God you could do this for
Me I would do that for you” And some of us get that Yes.
But many of us get the Big NO, “the one who did not study”
As I flip through the pages of my life I have seen many times,
Exams have crushed many dreams.
But the One truth that remains about our little friend
Exam, it is a social contract designed to test men’s intellectual
Knowledge acquired for the betterment of all.